Okay guys I need your help :D Does anybody knows what the name of this girl is???

I found after a long time some icons again I had already forgotten ! Obviously I always start with something, but never bring it to the end. Well, I think that is something I should work on :D

[1-11] New Moon
[1-8 ] Twilight Cast at Teen Choice Award 2009
[1-21] Gossip Girl


( She`s a poor one and it hurts me so )

So I changed my layout, for me, after a long time again. Although I am not 100% happy with it, but I just wanted something that is dark and that was till yet the best I could find. But anyways eventually it is just a LJ-layout so I will not worried about that anymore :D
Actually I already spend to much time on this `cause I have enough other "more important" stuff to do, like to learn spanish vocabulary -,- ...

Oh I am just happy when it is finally weekend and waaaay more when the vacation begins, but till that I have still to write like 100 exams

How school is? I don`t really know because one week it is like "Hey it isn`t that bad" and than in the next week " Oh god what a crap, why the hell I am doing this to me". So I reeeeally looking forward to the vacation first of all because than I have vacation xD, Xmas is coming and new year , where I will hopefully be at a big party

Can`t wait until the album will comes out, just love this brilliant band.

Okay I would definitely say my life situation got better. School doesn`t sucks sooo bad anymore, I guess I just needed some time to get into it. We wrote the first exams, Math and Spanish, in Math I was even the first who was finish. Another reason why school isn`t that bad anymore, is that we got a new Englisch teacher and I am pretty sure that he will be ten times better than our bitchy teacher before.   
So school doesn`t kill me anymore and the best tomorrow is the last school day and than I have two weeks vacation *YIPPI*. In this two weeks I will go to a hairdresser, get my body piercing and my Granny has birthday, she turns 80.

But that shouldn`t mean that I have not any other problems. Maybe not exactly problems I am more in an awkward situation. It is about boys.

First there is this one guy, I actually don`t know him so good. He is a friend of a friend of mine and because he cycle sometimes with us together back home, we got to know each other. And since that he always greets me when we see each other, but this isn`t the problem is more the way how he do it. He hug me, but in a way...I don`t know how to explain. But the point is that it is sometimes so exaggerated that it gets really embarrassing for me when he do it in front of friends. But the worst is when I am sitting with some friends somewhere. And as soon as he sees me, he comes and sometimes he even push himself through the others so he can sit next to me. But that is still not enough, no the last time he also had to lie his arm around me.
W-h-a-t- -t-h-e- f-u-c-k. I never gave him any hints in this way, no I actually think that I showed him enough times, that I don`t like it when HE do things like this. He is sooo not my type and it`s not only the way he looks like, I actually don`t "really" like his personality, either. He is "nice", but not more.

Secondly there is this other guy. I knew him by sight for a long time. Then he was, I think a month or something ago, two weeks in our class, because he didn`t done a school work experience. 
At this time I didn`t really notice him. But then shortly before the two weeks were over ...BOOM and I found him suddenly sooo great and handsome.  
Now I have still two courses with him and I see him pretty often in the school as well.
And, oh my god,  I always have to look at him, no to stare at him.
Sometimes he looks at me, too. And then I always think, what he has to thinks about me. I guess it is something like `why the hell is this weird girl always staring at me, doesn`t she has any other hobbies?´.
I seriously try to forget him, but when you see a person every fucking day it`s kind of hard, belive me.

I really start to believe that I am only interested in someone, who is obviously not in me!

At the moment I just feel like.... ihhhhhhaaaaawwohhhhhhh. Everything just sucks.
Especially school. I HATE school at the moment so bad. Last school year was unlike to this one a wonderful dream. I got a new class, new teachers, but I am actually fine with that. But everything seems to be on a whole new level, they expect so much of you. And I guess I have to admit that I am just too stupid. I really don`t think that I will make it.
But beside that there is still THIS other thing which making me sad/angry/feeling like the biggest L-O-S-E-R in the whole world. And what bother me the most about it is that I don`t feel like it will ever change.
Fortunately I have a good friend who knows how I feel because she is in the same "situation",  whereby I have at least somebody to talk about it .
So and instead of making this entry about my apparently palthy life I should actually do my homwork in politics but I don`t want to do it at all, maybe because I already wasted 6 hours of my life for that shit -,-

The only thing that makes my life at least a little bit livable is the book series which I read at the moment. Undead and... by Mary Janice Davidson. Maybe it is  not a literary Masterpiece, but it is fun and a bit dirty.

Oh and at least I want to keep you guys of  two "not really good" movies I watched yesterday with some friends. 
"Dumb and dumber" we did not even watch it to the end. I guess the problem was that it was just too dumb.
And the other one, "28 weeks later". Actually it wasn`t that bad, but I don`t really got the movie. The end was weird and it kinda ended as it had begun.

Today is actually a pretty fine day. It is sunny and school wasn`t that bad today, too. But wait.... right today I found out that I will probably have skin cancer. Yeah SKIN CANCER. I mean I am not a specialist, but one of mine birthmarks does not really looks "healthy" at all. Actually it`s even screaming at me: "look at me, look at me I am skin cancer". 
I really don`t have a clue why I should have skin cancer, I never saw a solarium from the inside and I am just as much outside as I have to.
GREAT!

Because I`m a creative person you`re a getting some creative stuff and today it`s a little drawing I drew recently. I know the hair looks like crap, but I want to share it with you guys anyways^^.

How can something like this just let me freaking so out. What I`m talking about? I`m talking about the fact, that I was crazy jumping around, after I watched the new trailer for New Moon. I mean it`s just a movie, but I`m already so in love with the book, that I probably shouldn`t be anxious about my behavior. But okay back to that what this entry actually is about, New Moon. I really get the feeling that it will be hundred times better that Twilight. I do not mean that Twilight wasn`t good, but I think this time is:
a) a better director
b) the movie is closer to the book
and
c) it`s full of jacobness (hihi)
And another important thing that (I think) you can already see in the trailers, is that the chemistry between Kristen and Taylor is as gorgeous as between Kristen and Robert.
I`m just so excited and I really do not think that I will get disappointed at all!!!
Oh and if you seriously don`t know, what this insane girl is talking about here the super hot, breathtaking trailer:
                                        

Yesterday I were somewhere, I never wanted to be. I were in a disco! Okay that sounds maybe like a normal thing a young girl like to do. But I actually never really got what should be fun about getting drunk and dancing strange around. However, I was anyway there and it was not as bad as I thought. It was okay I guess, although my shoes killed me and I was going like an undead in the end, but okay that was my fault.
Afterward I regret that I wasn`t drunk, 'cause when some guys tried to dance with me I was kind of confused and inhibited or I did not even realize that they were trying it. And a friend told me first on the way home, that a really handsome guy tried it and I dumbass just gone away.

Stupid, stupid girl

The next school year begins on thursday and I still don`t know where or when I have to be there. Great. I thought they would send a letter or something. After that books disaster, ( I had to buy all school books on my own, because I forgot to deliver a fucking letter, what was pretty expensive almost 300€ instead of 78€) now that. Actually I looking forward to school, `cause I get a new class what means, that I get to know new people. And I think that`s always a good thing. But on the other side I`m kind of sad because I actually really liked my old class and the people, but now I will probably see them never again or at least the majority `cause they already begin an apprenticeship.
But that just by the way. Today I`m going to watch "The Hangover", I hope that the movie will be as funny as everyone is saying, I need something I can laugh about because I`m kind of depressed. I`m not quit sure why, but I just feel so tired and bored, I really need to get out of this room and have some fun.

Am I bored or just creative? I seriously start to think about that, because I made again a new header. I really ♥ my new one, but I got the feeling that I possibly change my header too often. I guess I have a little header-issue, but anyway... I`m straightly back from my vacation and I (fortunately) have to say that it was better than I thought. I were a week with my father, brother and a good friend in "Heilgenhafen" it`s a place on the baltic see. When we arrived I was first a little bit shocked `cause our apartment was pretty small. And when my father also told me that a friend and her son want to stay for a night here too, I was like what the f*** where the hell do they want to sleep? And honestly I was also a little bit excited. `Cause my father told me that the son is in my age. Sadly he is a total mama`s boy and just ... weird. He didn`t change a word with me and grouched the whole time. At first I thought he is just shy, but my father told me that he is always like this. CREEPY BOY.
But beside that apparently disturbed boy, it was pretty cool we were three times at the beach, in an aquarium (where I saw the first time a shark) , in a theme park and I`don`t know anymore xD but we definitely used the time. And I think that this week proofed that my friend and I have a really good friendship `cause we hadn`t any conflicts ^^
I love you sarah!

Carl there is a dead human in our house. 
    Ho hey... how did he get here ? 
    Carl, what did you do ? 
                                      Me...that oh... I didn`t do that. 
                                      Explain what happend Carl ? 
                                      I never seen him before in my life. 
                                      Why did you kill this person Carl ? 
                                      I do not kill people, that is my least favourite thing to do. 
                                      Tell me Carl, exactly what you were doing before I got home. 
                                      Alright...Well I was upstairs... 
                                      Okay. 
                                      I was sitting in my room... 
                                      Yes 
                                      Reading a book...                                                        
                                      Go on. 
                                      And well this guy walked in...  
                                      Okay. 
                                      So I went up to him... 
                                      Yes. 
                                      And I stabbed him 37 times in the chest. 
                                      Carl, that kills people. 
                                      Oh, oh...Well, I didn`t know that. 
                                      How could you not know that ?
                            Yeah I`m in the wrong here, I suck.
                                      What happend to his hands? 
                                      What?  
                                      His hands, why are they missing? 
                                      I kind of cooked them up and eat them.
                                      Carl. 
                                      I was hungry and well, you know when you crave hands. 
                                      Why on earth would you do that ? 
                                      I was hungry for hands...give me a break. 
                                      Carl. 
                                      My stomach was making the rumblies... 
                                      Carl. 
                                      That only hands would satistfy. 
                                      What is wrong with you, Carl ? 
                                      Well, I kill people and eat hands that two things.

Today is one of these days I won`t forget for a long time. Although I actually didn`t expect anything special for this day, but things happened...I`m still laughing so much that my stomach is so damn hurting ...but is kind of a wonderful pain. I would really like to tell you what this all is about, but this is just to odd and embarrassing. At the moment I feel a little bit insane too, because I`m sitting here lonley in my room and laughing my fucking ass off, although the reason why, happened like midday...I know this will possibly sounds totally confusing and just weird to you, but I guess or hope some of you will know exactly what I`m talking about xD

So after I noticed that I wrote Kristen name wrong I had to edit some icons xD and of course make this entry again *stupid girl* ....but anyway first of all I got a new header which I pretty much like and I hope you guys ,too!? And some icons I made in my "creativ week"of course too

{1-10} Evangeline Lilly
{11-24} Kristen Stewart

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